A Ring, A Robe and a Party

imagePhew! My spiritual breakthrough finally!   I had been angry at God for about two weeks! Or maybe, no, it was just a week; but it felt like two weeks.
After I took DUI school I thought I would get a hardship license; so I was sort of riding on that hope. When it didn’t happen–they wouldn’t grant me a hardship license– I crashed and spent the next week being so mad at God! Isn’t that funny I’m mad at Him for all this? I blame him for my relapse last April (I had had 6 months sober then and thought it would last forever) and felt the DUI was more than I could handle. And didn’t God say He would never give us more than we could handle?
Meanwhile He is sending ALL these people to help me! Mom, Andraya, Sally, my new sponsor Patricia! They drive me places, give me support and love — And I just keep thumbing my nose at Him being ungrateful in my heart for my lot in life, poor me. But Wednesday, after my Mom left, I was supposed to work all afternoon designing ads and invoicing. Instead I happened to pick up a book we got at Church free at Christmas that I’d never opened: Four Signs of a Dynamic Catholic. It was written in simple enough language to penetrate even my hard heart.
After reading about having a daily scheduled routine of prayer/quiet time with God, I realized I had stopped doing that. And then reading about intentionality and continual improvement making small steps to God, and then reading about how God just waits for us to turn back to Him… my heart softened; and I put the book down and prayed…told God how SORRY I was for being such an ungrateful little brat, acknowledging finally all the blessings in my life and begged His forgiveness.
Just then His peace and warmth came back over me and He was back!!!!! And my whole attitude that I’ve had for the past week vanished, and I could start over with a clean slate and the Love of my Creator!
He was there the whole time just waiting for my return, with a ring and a robe and a party!!!
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6 thoughts on “A Ring, A Robe and a Party

  1. Dear Number 9, I sometimes find myself getting angry with God. He has blessed me with so much and I still get mad at Him over the silliest things. He has big shoulders and is probably laughing at me at the time. I do take the time though to apologize to Him. I know that it is my faith that has kept me sober. Every morning I ask Him to help me stay sober that day. At bedtime I thank Him for keeping me safe and helping me to stay sober. I am so grateful to Him. I could not do this without Him. I can have all the support and advice in the world via the meetings, my sponsor, family and friends, but it doesn’t mean a thing unless I am willing to take responsibility for my own sobriety. I have to want to want it. No one can do this for me. I rely on God for help and He is the one who gets me through the day. I have been sober for 13 years as of March 15. I took the time to thank God for all He has done for me and to thank Him for my sobriety. I am a grateful sober woman. God Bless you and I will be praying for you from this day forward. I place you in our Blessed Mother’s Heart for safe keeping. Debbie

    • CONGRATULATIONS on 13 years!!!!! Thank you so much Debbie for your comment. You nailed it. All the other things are there to support me but if I don’t stay close to God I’m lost.

  2. It is great to hear the good news. Easier said than done, I find it’s about being humble, putting God first and creating good routine. Sharing your story has helped me. Thanks!

  3. My sponsor told me that it wouldn’t have happened had I not been there. Somewhere along the chain of events of living I did something that caused whatever dilema I was in in. Today I know that I will every now and then experience teachable moments in my recovery. God is good and allows us the freedom to step on our own toes. The point for me is not to repeat my errors. God bless you,

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