Father Emmerich Vogt, OP has put out the Summer 2013 issue of The Twelve Step Review and it’s a really important one for those of us out here in recovery-land. Letting go of resentments is the focus and he nails it.
“Among feelings of unexpressed anger, resentment is regarded as the source of many mental and even physical illnesses. It has been defined as anger re-sent. It’s reliving the bitter hurts of our lives. Going through life with deep resentments leads only to unhappiness and futility in our efforts to get along.”
It was interesting for me to read that there are only two individuals in Sacred Scripture who are called Jesus’ “friends:” Lazarus and Judas. Lazarus makes sense. But Judas?
In the feature article, Father writes, “When Judas comes to betray Jesus, he is not greeted with ‘You filthy betrayer may you rot in Hell!’ Rather Jesus greets him with “friend.” (Matthew 26:49) I’ll write more verbatim from Father’s words: Why did Judas betray Jesus? This is an important question to ask because betrayal is something we might all be capable of, and the more we understand our sinful nature, the more we can learn from other people’s mistakes, even Judas’.
It would seem that Judas, having his own agenda, was trying to force Jesus into something that would play into his own plans, trying to force Jesus’ hand, so to speak. And, meditating on the role of Judas, some of us can see ourselves in his behavior. How? When we try to force the outcome of events, when we complain against God when things don’t go according to our plans. For this reason, the person seeking to recover from the effects of sin in his life is taught by Step Eleven to put aside all self-serving motives in his relationship with God. The focus of our prayers should be only seeking God’s will for our lives.
Father says he heard once, “Anger is not getting my way in the present; resentment is not getting my way in the pas; and fear is not getting my way in the future. ”
The Twelve Step Review is a quarterly newsletter and web site publication of the Western Dominican Province and written by Father Vogt. Visit them at www.12-Step-review.org for the whole thing.
- Judas: The Last Supper (utbobdylan.wordpress.com)
- Why did Judas betray Jesus? (altruistico.wordpress.com)
- Sermon 4 – Betrayal of Thine Self (theholyinspiration.wordpress.com)
- We Are Judas’ Kiss (corynikkel.com)
- Trusting God’s timing (thewiggs11.wordpress.com)
- An Effort to be Healed (knittedtogetherbygod.com)
- Elements of Recovery: Fire (notthissong.com)
- Conquering Resentment (Lesson 6) (angelswordsofwisdom.wordpress.com)
- Step 4 (Resentments) (piratesandpilgrims.wordpress.com)
- I’ve decided that I’m done having this resentment (xobhg.wordpress.com)