This blog has been a saving grace for me over the last three weeks. I’ve been confined to my home, mostly to my bed or couch because of a herniated disc in my lower back. The pain is bad and it seems my left leg muscles are starting to atrophy a little bit from the encroached nerve and non-use. (whine)
Blogging each day, committing to being part of WordPress’ “post-a-day-2013” is therapeutic and an enjoyable way to pass the time. I’ve discovered wonderful Catholic blogs “out there”, as well as hope-filled sobriety ones. Funny how I have come to know many of you–your personalities, simply by reading your words every day.
Prior to this, I’d been a four or five times per week meeting maker in AA. The meetings are key for me in helping me stay out of my own head, which eagerly waits for me to put my guard down so it can recommend a drink to ease my suffering. So, this online world has become my temporary meeting spot..the place where I come to read the experience, strength and hope from others and share my own when appropriate.
Many thanks to these bloggers for keeping me on my 12-step toes: Bye Bye Beer, Message In A Bottle, Sober Catholic, Emotional Drinking, Running on Sober, Sober Boots, The Bubble Hour, The Miracle Is Around the Corner and many others…
And since nothing can replace actual flesh and blood, I am so grateful that my sponsor AF and her sponsor SZ brought a meeting to me, since I couldn’t make one in person. They came to my house on Friday, drank tea with me, read from the Big Book and just talked Steps. AF was coy to point out too that I could use this time to work on my 4th Step, which I am still procrastinating. ha ha. Maybe I will work on it today?
I typically don’t ever have the desire to drink anymore. One of the benefits of being sober for a while (define: “for a while”) is the desire to drink pretty much disappears. Therefore, I’ve spent the big chunk of my time in here reading not recovery but Catholic blogs. Out in the “real world,” or at least in my real world, I don’t encounter people every day who explore their love of the faith. So, it’s wonderful to hang out in here with you all, especially these: Biltrix, Conversion Diary, and all the blogs that branch out from Conversion Diary through Jennifer Fulwiler’s 7 Quick Takes Fridays.
But since again nothing here can replace flesh and blood, I am sad to be missing Mass, unable to receive the body and blood of Jesus. I live a distance away from my parish so I hate to ask our pastor (who no doubt is busy tending to other more pressing matters) to bring the holy Eucharist to me; but maybe my Mom can bring me communion some time later this week. She receives an email every time I post so she’ll be getting this request soon enough! XOXO